Bus Rider

My friend Yojo recently wrote this:

I’ve got four documents open in Scrivener. Each is less than a month old, and not one of them is more than 700 words long. One is just an outline, and if you look closely you’ll find it’s actually a recipe for baba ganoush with some plot-related notes surrounding it.

I don’t actually know what Scrivener is, but I have a teensy bit of experience with that scattered, non-finished sort of writing. JUST A TEENSY BIT. And I don’t even have a baba ganoush recipe.

Last week I rode the bus to and from work at the yarn shop. It’s about a 15-20 minute ride, and I brought a book. You guys, I read a book. A whole book. I told Will this morning that going to work felt like vacation.

Look, I love being a mom. I really, really love it. But I am a little burned out.

Last summer, in a burst of pregnancy-induced creativity, I wrote about 7,000 words of a middle grade novel. It isn’t very good–in fact, it stinks–but if I sat down and finished it I could maybe try to fix it.

Since Grace’s birth, I’ve written scenes for two short stories, trying to find the necessary voice.

I’ve also managed to write two knitting patterns as well as notes on two others (seriously, they just need to be sized out and edited).

That is ALL the creative outlet I’ve found time for. I don’t read, I don’t write. I update my blog a couple times a week, if that, and I write my column (which I get paid for), and that’s it.

I swear I’m not trying to do everything. I’ll try that when the kids are bigger. I’ve even managed, thanks in part to my amazing sister’s help with the children, to enjoy every minute (or, you know, a lot of them) of Grace’s infancy. And now, as she gains some independence, I find myself longing for a little of my own. For a break from the hours I’ve spent every day lately trying to help her get to sleep (growth spurts SUCK). To read another book.

Maybe I just need somewhere to take the bus a few times a week.

9 thoughts on “Bus Rider

  1. georgia

    July 17, 2010 at 10:32pm

    take the bus to seattle! you might have to bring the kids though.

  2. Swistle

    July 18, 2010 at 5:12am

    I am totally trying your pizza recipe. About cooking the sauce down to half, what’s a ballpark time it might take? Is it “leave it simmering on the stove for hours” or less than that?
    .-= Swistle´s last post ..OMG I THINK I MADE JAM =-.

  3. Amy

    July 18, 2010 at 8:51am

    OOOH, me too! I want a bus trip! That sounds like fun. I’ve only read two books and thumbed through a bunch of others since Bug was been born. My writing, as you can see for my blog is scattered at best. And I don’t get paid for anything.

  4. Amanda

    July 18, 2010 at 10:06am

    I hope you figure out where to fit that time in. Having time to yourself once in a while makes you a better mom.
    .-= Amanda´s last post ..Just Like Summer Vacation =-.

  5. Yojo

    July 18, 2010 at 11:21am

    Take a nice big purple eggplant (or two medium ones) and remove the top. Wash the skin.
    Poke it with a fork a few times (they can explode…)
    Pop that puppy on your biggest stove burner (or on a hot grill) and roast directly on the flame, turning as needed until it’s evenly blackened and wrinkly.
    Remove and completely encase in foil. Roast for 15 minutes over very low flame. Flip. Another 15 minutes on the other side.

    Put the foil lump in a big empty bowl until it’s cool enough to touch.
    Flake away most of the blackened skin and discard with the foil.
    Plop the whole mushy lump into the flakey juice in the bowl.
    Add 1-2 TBS of good olive oil.
    Throw in 2 TBS sesame seeds (even better if you have roasted ones!)
    Add 3-5 minced cloves garlic.
    Add 1/4 cup lemon juice.
    Add 1/4 cup tahini.
    Salt as you see fit (you will need *some*).
    If you have any zataar or sumac, this is a great time to add it to taste.

    Blend or mash (I prefer mashing…leaving some lumps in there) until it’s fairly uniform.
    Cover and chill for at least an hour.
    Delish-i-fy!

    See, now you have a baba recipe. Now, if the two of us could only find some damn time. I think we should team up. We could trade off having time, maybe…since it obviously isn’t working the whole way for either of us.

    And I love you.

  6. Annika

    July 18, 2010 at 2:53pm

    Swistle–it only takes about half an hour, I think. I’m about to make some, I’ll let you know if it’s significantly more or less!

  7. Annika

    July 18, 2010 at 4:16pm

    Okay, it was a little more than that. Maybe 45 to an hour.

  8. Jessica

    July 18, 2010 at 7:13pm

    I hear you. If I listen to books on tape during my commute i feel like I get some sort of intellectual stimulation. Otherwise, my brain is oatmeal. I haven’t actually read anything more sophisticated than murder mysteries since C was born. And I very rarely write…though I finally came up with a project to start this fall…so long as I actually follow through…gah.
    .-= Jessica´s last post ..Storytime =-.

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