Sigh. My Grandma is dying. Step-Grandma. Dorothy. She’s my step-father Bill’s mom. Bill and my mom weren’t married until I was an adult, but Dorothy always treated me and my sister like part of the family. (I don’t think my mom got the same consideration; Dorothy is very old-fashioned.) She was misdiagnosed with pneumonia over Christmas and they finally found lymphoma. She started chemo but it almost killed her, so now she’s home and I guess they’re doing hospice. Bill and Hannah (my step-sister) are headed to Florida to be with her and John.
I haven’t seen anyone from that side of the family in nearly ten years, and I am not good at keeping in touch. My parents weren’t close with their families when I was young, which is no excuse at all but I do feel like I never saw an example of a close-knit extended family except for John and Dorothy’s, and I honestly have no idea how to maintain that closeness. I’m not blaming my parents or anything, I just wish I’d started out with a better idea of how to do this. I am feeling so guilty and wanting to improve the way I relate to my family.
And I’m feeling sad, because I am losing a Grandma. And I’ve never done that before.
Edit, March 18: Dorothy passed away this morning, before Bill and Hannah could get there.