I am pretty depressed about it, but I was right: Sam really is done napping. If he has more than a quickie car nap, he does not go to bed at night. If I keep him awake all day (still a struggle as he gets soooo sleepy mid-afternoon, but doable if I am vigilant) he goes to bed easily at a reasonable hour and sleeps better throughout the night. But keeping him awake, and the zero time to myself that goes along with it, is HARD.
I can give him food and a movie and he is pretty happy by himself for an hour, though he prefers for me to sit with him. Still, nine times out of ten I can go downstairs and have a little quality time with my coffee or the internet or whatever. It is never enough time to do any serious writing, but I imagine it could eventually be. I can knit all I like sitting right next to him. But the instant I take out my sewing things, he comes downstairs and literally starts to headbutt my cutting arm.
This is a problem. I have some sewing that I need to get done. Also, I do not like being headbutted. Nor do I like hollering at my kid but it is kind of reflexive. And then he cries because he only wanted some loving from Mama, and then I feel like a monster.
He needs my attention pretty much all day. He wants me to play with him or nurse him or just sit there with him. I am OK with that, since he does usually grant me a little time during a movie. But what do I do if he doesn’t allow me to use that time the way I need to?
Practical suggestions would be SO welcome, but please keep in mind my philosophy of gentle parenting and my $0 budget for childcare.