Finding Time

It is impossible to do everything I want to do. I’m pretty sure that’s true for everyone, but recently I’ve been finding it impossible to do everything I need to do. Even allowing that some things will be neglected sometimes and that priorities will be cyclical, I was a wreck.

Caring for the children full time, being responsible for their educations and social lives, cooking most of the meals, trying to keep the house clean (well, not filthy, anyway), maintaining my own friendships, not to mention my marriage, and oh yeah–attempting to run a fledgling knitting design business and do occasional freelance work. Plus I still want to write, and I’ve taken up photography again.

Everything was slipping.

So. Once I’ve finished the designs I currently have in-progress and met my deadlines, I am going to take a break from designing. It has been stressing me right the fuck out this year, but I am still not making any money worth talking about. It’s no longer fun like a hobby and the returns are not worth it. So, yes: I am giving up. Maybe. I’m going to knit for my own enjoyment for a while, and design only when the urge strikes and only if I really want to.

Frankly, I am so relieved. You would not even believe it. Last week I started writing something, just a little project I have been wanting to do for a while, and I’m so happy exercising a different part of my brain. I need a break.

Besides, this is the only way I can knit my 13 shawls.

5 thoughts on “Finding Time

  1. Susan

    November 19, 2012 at 2:12pm

    That relief says a *lot* about this decision, and that it is the right one. Knitting for enjoyment will feel pretty awesome, I bet! :)
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  2. Lucretia

    November 20, 2012 at 11:28am

    Looking after two children and doing all those things must take up a lot of time. I was unemployed for 6 weeks recently, WITHOUT having anyone else to look after, and I STILL didn’t get all my stuff done. Modern life is stressful.

  3. Katherine

    November 21, 2012 at 5:49pm

    I think that going full-bore at different things at different times is actually really healthy – I firmly believe that it works out our brains in different ways and allows us to focus on more in the long run.

    Also, 13 shawls!!!
    Katherine´s last post ..Something Real: a review of LIVE THROUGH THIS

  4. Jenn

    November 22, 2012 at 9:41pm

    Yeah, that is why I no longer do cards. In any real way. But I do so much that makes my life full, so I’m totally okay with that (most days).

  5. ~zandra~

    November 27, 2012 at 8:53am

    I hear ya. Something has to give and I’m glad you feel relief.
    ~zandra~´s last post ..failure

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